like some kind of anti-fascist femi nazi i was wrong. Because i cared too much, but not enough. i was p.c., and p.c. wasn’t cool, but he was more p.c. than me. If i had a point, it was irrelevant. And he..he was the victim but at the same time the hero. He was more anarchist because his mo hawk was longer, his jacket more studded, his black jeans a darker shade of ego. His issues were more important, his pain more painful, his knowledge more extensive, his environmentalism more pure. He fights all fights everyday, he tells us. He fights more than us, for us, against us. He’s done it for 20 years. He’s no show pony. I was only at a couple of blockades. He was at them all. He has bigger and better orgasms, coz he watches porn with his partner because it’s purer that way. He’s purer than me. He does more. He did all this today, all this fighting and what did i do? Doesn’t matter because it wasn’t as important. because i said something. I was whinging, but he’s the victim of it all. It wasn’t personal but he took it all personally, because he was the one talking, the one saying. Every question had to be answered with an attack, an accusation of being p.c. which i think is bad. Then comes the condescension. words like darlin, accusations of cutting people off. I don’t have that right. It’s my fault that society can’t get along, that environmental campaigns fail, that we can’t be decent, that he can’t be decent. It can’t be his even though he is the self appointed leader of all the fights. Then the sarcasm and the invalidation, because somewhere in Africa things were different once. I must be a nazi. I’m racist. I’m not as good as him. He can function in regular society. I can’t. I’m too stupid and opinionated. He tells me. You can’t complain about this till you do all that. You should do that. He get to tell me what i should do because he’s him. He’s better. But wait, he can save me. He will lower himself to explain it to me. Because even though I’m a nazi I’m not an adult. YES. He can open my mind. Thank god. but no. wait. Why can’t i just keep my feminazi mouth closed. I said something. That was the problem. which is ironic when our opinions don’t matter. something that doesn’t matter is a problem. that’s the problem. I need to get over myself. I’m not that important. He is